I am not late to say I love you, and truthfully I save it in my deeply heart till the time is right. But then it’s gone!
while seeing you in long distance, I feel that my heart beats and every step that I close to you and really close I don’t want to be a silly or dumb, yeah my gesture shows that I need to see you for long time, I need to stare your eyes every hour or even every day. I wonder that you are really my apple on my eyes.
First seeing you, I don’t know why I was so interested to you. It was like two magnet with different pole and suddenly came “law of attraction” worked. I thought that you have feel like mine. But I don’t know what your feeling at that time!
You were really kind, wisdom, and even you blow my heart with your poem till’ it cold. Remember the story while I was late:
The clock showed that it is more than 9:30 am, and I was still running and running to catch my college. Okay, I was late but not very late. I was the one of person who did not want to sit at the back side, so I decided to sit front. But there was 1 chair in front and if I sat there I will sit between 2 guys and this is Islamic University of Indonesia. Alright , my ego was win, so I sit between of 2 guys. this was how the story start 🙂
“Excuse me, may sit here please??” I asked
“No!” He answered
“Whatt!! But I don’t want to sit at the back!! SO PLEASE! LET ME SIT HERE!!!” I pretended to beg
“Al right, I f you want to sit here!” The last answered
“THANKS! (sigh)” I mumbled
—–The class started—-
It was a social psychology and we studied about love and law of attraction materials. Hmm,, not really exciting. When lecturer explained the materials I just talked to my self, but suddenly the boy who annoyed me before follow my self-talk and give comment.. For short story, we were connected of what we talked about. But suddenly at the end of the class again and again, he annoyed me (sigh)
“Oh ya by the way, I don’t know your name. So what is your name?” I asked
“:) You can see mine on attendance!” He answered
“What!! I don’t have any clue to find your name on attendance!! Arggghh” Bit mumbled
“Your name is ririn right??” He said the left me
How he knew my name!!!
This is the story that I never forget!!
The next semester we only have one class that we were classmate. At that time, we were very intense for communicating. I conclude that “I HAVE FEELING TO HIM, AND I THINK HE IS MY DESTINY IN MY WHOLE LIFE”
I never knew what was his feeling, just keep in my heart but I always gave him clue that I really need him,,
I did not know why suddenly he disappeared that he said that he was not good for me and so don’t trust him anymore!
Need for long time to forget him, so I decided to stay away with him.. But it was hard for me for forgetting him, I cried and cried, like a little girl who need her mom in her side. Really hard to forget him..
I have to build up my brain and say “not to forget him, but THIS IS NOT THE TIME FOR LOVING HIM” I trust
Despite people knew that I have no comment about him but I still keep his name in my heart and always always and always see him from long distance until know, in every chance that I meet him, I always see him and wonder that he also see me. I expect that he still keep the name “Princes Sun” and “Princess Lunar” in his heart. And until now those names never disappeared, they are still on my mind and in my heart.
I don’t wanna be a girl with the obsessive, I just want to wait him and my guts just the limit of seeing him and text an empty message to him when I miss him. Until now I still sent an empty message to him.
Day by day, month by month, and it’s been 2 years I still wait him.
Briefly, now.. I’m late, I’m too late,,